Is our desire in the redemption of circumstance?
Is our trust in a resurrection of well-being?
Desires drive us, and so at the turn of a year, a good question to ask is, "what do we most desire?" Is it our greatest ambition to see all the parts of our life work? Do we most yearn for a positive change in our circumstances? Do we thirst most for a healing somewhere deep in ourselves? A wholeness that makes us feel put together? Or do we desire a Person? Do we really want God Himself - to know Him, and love Him above all else? To know His beauty, His kingship, Him as Lover?
Desiring the Person may actually satisfy our appetite for the first two but in ways unexpected as we abandon ourselves to Him. Making the first two our central aims will take us down paths of "never enough" and keep us grabbing all we can for ourselves. We would do well to pay attention to what we are chasing after. We can make it look "spiritual", but it may keep us frenzied, easily satisfied, and turned in on ourselves.
“It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.” - CS Lewis
